Date:	2006-05-11 23:48
Subject:	My Interview...
Security:	Public
Mood:	crushed

I had a teaching interview today, it actually went really well. I think they liked me. We talked about ELD level and how I would teach students. What sets me apart from other teachers and various other questions that is asked. It was very informal and we talked about the positive and negative things about my student teaching as well as this school. I was very hopeful until they brought up "displaced teachers". The moment they said, "We can't offer you a contract right now because...." I knew what was coming next. Many school in LAUSD are cutting back classes cause students are moving to Lancaster, Palmdale and Nevada. Since students are moving, teachers are being shuffled around to different schools (hence, displaced). These teachers have first priority in hiring. In fact schools are given list and told to hire these teachers. I have an early contract with LAUSD but I'm last on the priority list. I basically get the left over school that other teachers chose not to go to.

I got really sad after that interview. I'm fighting an up hill battle. I do really well, but still can't get the job. The principal said that they may still have a position for me after they place a few teachers. Honestly, I doubt that will happen. This school is such a great school, high test scores, big yards and nice administration. It's just a little crowded.

I only have about 3-5 weeks left to really look for a job. The matrix (next years room and grade assignments) are pretty much all done, it's just a matter of time. I hope that I get some calls soon.

Date:	2006-05-11 23:28
Subject:	Day 10
Security:	Public
Mood:	cheerful

Wednesday's Weigh In- (Weight is measured in the mornings, right when I wake up. The listed weight and "% of fat" difference is from the first day of my diet.)

Starting weight: 1##lbs.

Pounds lost/gain: - 2 lbs.

% Fat Lost/gain: +1.5%

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Food

Breakfast: NONE

Lunch: leftover Chicken Fettuccine Alfredo (amount was about the size of my fist)

Dinner: Sushi (Nigri: 2-salmon, 2-yellowtail, 2-Albacore, 1 Eel …. Cut Rolls: 2 pieces spicy tuna, 3 pc. Spicy yellowtail, 3 pc Spicy Scallop, 4 pc Asparagus and Shrimp Tempura) Dessert- 1 scoop of Bryers Chocolate Ice Cream.

Date:	2006-05-10 19:23
Subject:	Day 9
Security:	Public
Mood:	happy

Wednesday's Weigh In- (Weight is measured in the mornings, right when I wake up. The listed weight and % of fat difference is from the first day of my diet.)

Starting weight: 1##lbs.

Pounds lost/gain: - 1.8 lbs.

% Fat Lost/gain: +.3%

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Food

Breakfast- Honey nut Cheerios with 8 oz. 1% milk

Lunch- Steamed Vegetables (Broccoli, Carrots, Squash, Cauliflower, garlic and 2 tablespoons of butter.) and 2 pieces of BBQ Pork Ribs. To drink I had water.

Dinner- 3/4 Fettacini Alfredo (from Pig and Whistle), 3 slice of bread and butter and water.

Date:	2006-05-09 20:00
Subject:	Day 8
Security:	Public
Mood:	content

Tuesday's Weigh In- (Weight is measured in the mornings, right when I wake up.)

Starting weight: 1##lbs.

Pounds lost/gain: - .8 lbs.

% Fat Lost/gain: -.4%

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Food
Breakfast- NONE

Lunch- Teacher Appreciation Lunch (Super small slice of Lasagna, small salad with ranch dressing, 2 cupcakes, and a around 8 oz. of Diet Dr. Pepper)

Dinner- 3/4 of a Lasagna Pizza from Howard Hughes. (Super Fating, but I was having a tough day...)

Date:	2006-05-08 20:14
Subject:	Vegas- What's the damage?
Security:	Public
Mood:	accomplished

Thursday

Breakfast- None

Lunch- Wendy’s Grilled Chicken Sandwich, 12 once coke.

Dinner- 2 serving pasta with white cream sauce, stir fried beef, grilled cheese sandwich, and 12 once coke.
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Friday

Breakfast- None

Lunch- Pad See Ew

Dinner- 1 serving (really small) fish noodles, and Cambodian lettuce wraps

Late night snack- McDonald's Double Cheese Burger and yogurt cone.
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Saturday

Breakfast- Sausage McMuffin, and large orange juice.

Lunch- Banana

Dinner- Rio World Buffet (2 plates of Chinese food and sushi) 4 small scoops of Gelato Ice Cream.
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Sunday

Breakfast- 1/2 McDonald's Sausage McMuffic

Lunch- Wendy's Grilled Chicken Sandwich

Dinner- Whiskey Petes' Buffet (2 chicken legs, 3 BBQ pork ribs, 1 small scoop of mashed potatoes, 1/2 chocolate pie)
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Monday

Breakfast- Croissant Which Sandwich

Lunch- Steamed Chicken with carrots, snow peas and bell peppers

Dinner- 5 pieces of BBQ Pork ribs
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We went to Vegas this past weekend, left on Friday and came back on Sunday. I didn’t get to weigh myself the past couple days… I haven’t been posting either. =\ We played volleyball on Saturday and Sunday… 8 hours a day! Yes, I got my share of a workout but I also consumed a lot. Over the weekend I think I had 4-5 20 ounces of Gatorade but I had tons of water. I tried to not drink very much so I wouldn’t consume more calories. I’ll add my weight and fat percentage for today later … we’ll see the damage of Vegas.

Wednesday-

Food-

Breakfast- a slice of toast with a little butter and 12 once of coffee with cream and sugar.

Lunch- Rosted Chicken Sub on Wheat (695 calories, 17 grams of fat- that includes the cheese and all the fixings.)

Dinner- Tri Tip (360 calories, 18 grams of fat) and steamed vegatables with garlic and a thin slice of butter.

Workout-

4 hours of volleyball.

Starting weight: 1##lbs.

Pounds lost/gain: - .4 lbs.

% Fat Lost/gain: +.4%

(Weight is measured in the mornings, right when I wake up.)

Monday-

Food-

Breakfast- Coffee with cream and sugar.

Lunch- Tofu with shrimp and port over rice, and green tea.

Dinner- Zanku Chicken Wrap.

Workout-

Jogged/walked- 3 laps (approx. ¾ of a mile)

Volleyball- 4 hours

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Tuesday-

Food-

Breakfast- two toast with a little butter and a 12 once of orange juice.

Lunch- Zanku Chicken Wrap

Dinner- (1) fish taco from Rubios. (300 Calories, 16 grams of Fat, 2 of those grams are saturated.)

Workout-

No workout

Starting weight: 1##lbs.

Pounds lost/gain: - .6 lbs.

% Fat Lost/gain: +.4%

I’ve been watching what I eat, and it’s so difficult. I wanted pizza for dinner, but the pizza I wanted was filled with cheese, sausage, pepperoni, and even more cheese! I was good though, I bought a fish taco thinking that it would be better, BUT it’s probably the same!

I got home at 8pm and fell asleep! I felt so bad! I laid down next to Christopher and just fell asleep. He ended up walking me to bed at 11pm. Sad, huh? I use to go to bed at 2am and now I can’t stay awake past 9pm.

Date:	2006-05-01 18:35
Subject:	I pay how much to go to a PROFESSIONAL School?
Security:	Public
Mood:	frustrated

I'm not sure who is in charge of planning classes at Pepperdine, but who ever is doing it is HORRIBLE at their job. I have had my Edu 673 class changed 4 time. My classes have been moved so many times, that I've lost track of it's movements. First it's on Tuesday, then moved to Thursday, then moved back to Tuesday, then changed professor, then moved to Thursday, changed professor again and moved back to Tuesday. I'm not sure that's the order but it has changed professors 3 times, and location and date 4! NO JOKE! I'm not exaggerating.

I'm am so annoyed and frustrated. I had plans for tomorrow, but now I have to cancel my plans and adjust everything. It's not really that big of a deal to move my plans around, but it's the fact that I'm paying $35,000 + for people to arrange this for me. We really should get some of that back, considering what we have had to endured. I'm tempted to reply back to their email, asking them how many more times are they going to change our classes... after all they still have 20 some hours before class starts?

I would NEVER suggest Pepperdine Grad School to anyone. It's not worth it.

Date:	2006-04-30 23:49
Subject:	The start of a long journey...
Security:	Public
Mood:	optimistic

Last night, Andrew and I decided to make a bet. We both have wanted to accomplish this for the longest time, this bet is to help us along. Andrew has to save $15,000 by December 15th. I think Andrew can do it. He has to just cut down on his spending! No buying expensive toys and gagets, No trips, No buying clothes, etc.

I have to lose 20lbs by December 31st. I have to suffer through Thanksgiving and Christmas! Since starting college I have gained around 45lbs! Yes, around 45 lbs! In high school, I played softball and volleyball. I played sports throughout the year, I trained and trained and trained. I use to walk everywhere Not having a car worked wonders on my thighs. I believe that I can lose 25 pounds by the end of this year, by June of 2007 I hope to drop another 20 pounds.

My blog is now going to be food/weight blog. I am going to log my weight everyday and what I eat. I'm not sure if I can blog EVERYDAY, but I'll definatley keep track of it. I am a bit hesitent on telling the world how much I weigh. I have always kept my weight a HUGE secret. When I was wieghed at the doctors office, I made Christopher turn around!

FOOD

Breakfast: NONE

Lunch: Zanku Chicken Wrap w/ Humus

Dinner: Japanese Bento Box- two small pieces of friend chicken, tempura vegetable, half a bowl of spicy tuna bowl, small bowl of cold soba, (half) tofu salad.

Dessert: 4 small scoops of Breyer's Ice Cream (Chocolate/Cherry)

Workout

Jogged/walk- one mile and two set of stairs at the track.

Volleyball: 3 hours

Starting weight: 1##lbs.

Pounds lost/gain: N/A

Date:	2006-04-28 18:35
Subject:	Applications
Security:	Public
Mood:	worried

I have sent a total of 36 resume/cover letter/philosophy statement packets. These schools are all over Los Angeles. They actually are all along the 405 and 110 freeway area. I really hope that I get a job soon. You think sending 36 application will guarantee at least a handful of opportunity, but it doesn't mean anything. Having a Masters Degree in Education, National Honors, 3.96 gpa, and endless recommendations also doesn't mean that I'll have a job by the end of this school year. There are so many multiple subject teachers and not enough positions around the Westside. I don't want to teach too far from home, but it's not looking so good. I might have to.

I already have a contract with LAUSD, but I don't have a school to teach at. If I can't find one, they are going to assign me a school... which I don't want! Then again, if they can't place me I'll still get paid. I wonder if that means I still have to be on call to sub, or if I just get to sit at home for 9 months and get paid. ;)

Anyone have any connections?

Date:	2006-04-22 21:24
Subject:	YAY!
Security:	Public
Mood:	happy

So all my grades aren't in yet... but as of right now, I have all A's! I'm pretty sure that I got an A in my other class. Hopefully! I haven't done so well in school since... high school!



I swear I didn't photoshop it either! =)

I feel like a little kid! I'm also excited, cause I'm going to Disneyland! YAY! I haven't been there in 15+ years!

Date:	2006-04-21 00:28
Subject:	Weight problems....
Security:	Public
Mood:	sad

Working on the webpage have made me realize how much I’ve changed in the past couple years. I have transitioned from wild party animal to motherly May. Seriously, I use to party like crazy and be super fit and thin.

Looking back at my high school pics are even sadder! I use to be so fit and thin. I remember my doctor telling me that I was under weight… and look at me now! Sure, I’m not obese, but I’m not the way I want to be. I don’t know if I will ever get to where I use to be, but I want to get close. Take a look at Christopher and my website: www.chrisnmay.com. You can see for yourself how much I have changed. I have taken small steps, like eating less and choosing my food a little more careful. But there are two things I really need to change: 1) eat healthier food (No sweet tooth!) and 2) Go to the gym regularly. Since I don’t know how hectic my schedule is going to be, planning a workout schedule is going to be tough. I guess I should go to the gym whenever I get a chance… each moment of free time should be gym time. Maybe I’ll go buy a bike tomorrow… so I can start biking places.

I wish there was a miracle pill. My goal is to shed 40 pounds…. Okay realistically, 25-30 pounds. I love food so much! What to do!? What to do!? Maybe I should blow up of my skinny days and hang it on the wall to remind me!?

Date:	2006-04-19 17:33
Subject:	pooped!
Security:	Public
Mood:	grumpy

My spring break is coming to a close. Well, actually I’m still on Pepperdine break. I have to start student teaching on Monday. I wish I had more time for break… like the next 76 years! I’m so Pepperdined out! There is only 3 months left, but it’s going to be a painful three months. I have project after project, then I have a take over. Not to mention I have to look for a job. It’s impossible to find a job out here. Supposedly this is the better district to work in. I dropped off my resume to my old school, unfortunately they aren’t hiring. Apparently, I missed the hiring frenzy there by a year. They were hiring like crazy last year, and no one is leaving this year. One teacher is retiring but the number of students are being reduced, so it balances out. This sucks!

I think being on spring break has made me HATE school. My new professor sent our class the syllabus, reading it gave me tears! I’m dreading everything! Does anyone know of any good school? I probably have job at the current school I’m working at, but it’s a charter school… so less benefit then working with LAUSD. The current school a charter school, so it’s ran independently. I’m dreading Monday… can I just drop out!?!?!?

Date:	2006-04-18 20:40
Subject:	tummy ain't feeling so friendly...
Security:	Public
Mood:	drained

DUDE! My luck, my doctor told me I have the stomach flu. The worst is probably over, but sometimes my tummy still feels like shit! =( What a way to spend my spring break, huh? I'm sleeping 24/7!

Christopher had minor surgery on his toe today too. Man, the both of us are breaking down! I hope we'll both be okay for Disneyland!

Date:	2006-04-12 13:09
Subject:	Sad news....
Security:	Public
Mood:	life can be so unfair!

Last week, I received news from my family that one of my family members had been diagnosed with liver cancer. This is the 5th person in my family member who has been diagnosed with this cancer. 4 of the 5 have succumbed to the disease. The fifth member has an estimated 6 to 12 months to live. My other cousin/uncle has also just been diagnosed with another source of cancer… though I’m not sure what cancer (Chinese translation is a little tough to understand.) I believe my mother said the cancer is intestinal or liver cancer. My cousin/uncle is really young, he’s not even 45 yet. He’s not married and has no kids. Although his life style isn’t the best (smokes and drinks)… he’s still young.

For this reason, I have decided to give up certain alcohol for a while. No more beer, no more hard alcohol. The only alcohol I’m going to have is wine and champagne. I’m not sure how long this will be for…. but it probably for a while. I’ll still make the mojitos and other deadly drinks… but I won’t be drinking it. Maybe I'll taste it just to make sure it’s tasty, but that’s it. With the history my family has, and the fact that my liver is already weakened due to other problems … this maybe the best (only) decision I can make. (This will hopefully also do wonders for my bank account and weight!)

Date:	2006-04-03 12:33
Subject:	UCLA vs. Florida
Security:	Public
Mood:	excited

Isn't this great?!?!?!?

Date:	2006-03-20 16:03
Subject:	Choas...
Security:	Public
Mood:	busy

Things are getting a bit choatic now. I have a million things running through my mind. Don't get me wrong, it's not a bad thing... it's just intense! If I'm not thinking about the next unit I'm teaching next week, then i'm thinking about the next lesson plan I need to write for my ITU (Interthematic Unit)if not that, then i'm thinking about my placement for next year.

Everyweek I teach a lesson to first and second graders. For the next couple weeks i'll be craming for my RICA exam or getting my ITU completed. My ITU is made up of 8 different lessons, pluse activites, props and displays. I've been working on it already, but i need to fix it up. For my other class, I have a case study and a RICA graphic orginizer due. On top of all this... I have an interview tomorrow with LAUSD. If they like me, they may offer me a 1 year contract right on the spot... the question is if i want it. I have to find a decent school that i like. I want to teach at a school that speaks chinese (since i speak it) but its' going to be tough!

Hopefully i don't completely blow my interview! =\ Wish me luck!

I hate being sick! I'm stuffed up, light headed, sneezing, coughing and have a slight fever.

I feel like i have an elephant sitting on my head!

Thankfully chris (the best BF in the world) is getting me jamba right now... yummy!

Date:	2006-02-09 15:57
Subject:	almost brings me to tears.....
Security:	Public
Mood:	impressed

Anyone who knows me, knows that I'm one of the most sappy and muchy person. But this really made me tear up. I watched Operah today (cause there was nothing else to watch) when I heard what Ryan Devlin of Illinois did. When Hurricane Karina hit the gulf coast, media coverage was on every channel and on every show. Mr. Devlin ovwhelmed by this decided to start a relief drive collecting anything he could from his community. He then decided that he would rent a van and drive the donations he collected to the people in need. Even though he had very little money, he still managed to figure a way to fullfill this much needed help. Being a HUGE White Sox fans and waiting 80 years for them to get to the World Series, Mr. Devlin decided to sell his 2 tickets to pay for the trip to the gulf coast. TWO WORLD SERIES TICKETS!!!! Mr. Devlin is a HUGE (let me emphasize... HUGE). He said that he probably watch all the White Sox's games for the past 5 years. When he was a child he played in the little leauge White Sox team.

A few players heard of his generosity and decided to give him reward his good deed. The White socks graciously gave him: 2- all expense paid trip to All Star Games in Pittsburg, 2 all expensed paid trip to the Spring training camp (plus batting practice with the team), a jerersy, 2- tickets to the opening day (and he gets to throw out the first pitch), AND 2- season passes for next season! In addition to all this he has been awarded the Rollin Heaman award (awarded to those who sacrifices for the benifit of others). He is now considered part of the White Sox family.

Isn't that insane?! I can't believe that the White Sox would give and do all that for him. It's amazing! I know the White Sox earn alot of money and can afford it, but to take the time and to give that away is really special. I always thought people of the MLB didn't really care and just in it for the money... well, some teams are. But the White Sox really impressed and touched me. Being a sports fanatic, what they did really made me tear up. I wish more teams support their fans like this. GO GIANTS! I know they do things like this... I KNOW the Dodgers don't. They are super cheap and stingy. (inside sources)

Date:	2006-01-24 00:01
Subject:	Hellish week...
Security:	Public
Mood:	happy

So after a small breakdown I’m 1.5 way done with my take over. The past few weeks has been quite stressful. It’s so difficult to have a life, teach kids, and get a masters at the same time. I choose to have all three, and that’s why I’m DYING!

Mammoth was fun. A snow storm hit on Saturday, but we were at June Mountain… so it wasn’t that bad. The mountain was a pretty foggy and the snow was falling pretty hard, but it was board-able. It was a lot better than Mammoth, which I hear was horrible. Sunday, on the other hand was AMAZING. The sun was out, it was powder and I had great company. Chris and I rode the slopes all day… even though we were sore. I’m starting to carve pretty well now. I can’t wait to get back on the slopes.

Since I went to Mammoth I neglect all of my homework…=\ Boy, was that a mistake! I spent the rest of the week catching up on homework. Sleep was scarce that week. I woke up almost everyday at 4:30am to finish homework, (remember I don’t go to bed until 1ish). Since we had to commute from PV my drive was twice as long. There were a few nights that I had stay at home cause I was just too tired. After a week of grueling planning and homework cramming, I’m rewarded with a great evaluation! =) Now I can just relax and finish up the week. It shouldn’t be too bad, since my grades are in already. I have one more science, three more L.A. lesson and one Chinese New Year Lesson, then I’m done!

More good news… I have a teacher for next term! My professor decided to match me last with a master teacher cause I have the most experience. (good thing and bad thing) We had two master teacher who dropped out of the program and one student teacher, so the numbers didn’t work out and I was left teacherless. After talking to one of the master teacher who decided to drop out (cause she’s having too much issue with the current Student Teacher) I was able to convince her to reconsider! She’s really kick back and young. Hopefully, I’ll learn a lot and won’t be worked to death! =)

I’m counting down the days! 4 more days and I get one week off! Yay!


PS. Thank-you sweety for putting up with me... yet again! I know that I've been stressed, moody and a little stressed... =\